I have always been a very positive person. May be my innate optimism helped me come out of the mess I found myself in. After all it’s not easy for anyone to accept how a life so beautiful could turn out to be as horrible as it did in my case.
I was in a different country with a person who I thought loved and understand me completely. At least that’s the impression I got when I was dating him.
Alex is a Russian, wheres from my mother’s side, I am half Russian. I was a financially secure 22 year well known model when I met Alex in Moscow 2004.
My mum’s sister and family lives there. Alex was just the man I always dreamed of, I was so in love with him that I decide to chuck everything in India and settle down in Russia I just wanted to be happy with him. Tough my parents did not like him but I had faith on him so we got married and settled in Moscow the following year. At first there was no problem in my paradise…how ever in barely two months time his deep sense of insecurity asserted itself. He was doing post graduation in economics and working on weekends, financially speaking we were mostly living on my savings but I had to live my modeling career due to his insecurity feeling. My parents also helped me yet he would constantly whine about how my parents should be financing us since he was a student. It seemed to me to be an indirect hint at dowry, and I was very hurt .He became intensely possessive of me to the extent that he would not like me talking to anyone, even my own family members, at first it was just verbal abuse later things came to such pass that he started physically abusing me. I was completely clueless about how to handle the situation because no matter what I did to ease things between the two of us, it would in variably backfire. My in laws tried to help me but could not do much, though we were living in the same house but were not together. So day in and day out we went through the same ritual of abuse and hurt. Typically it used to be one day of having a fight followed by two to three days of remorsefulness from his side, and then back to square one. He would come from the university, eat play computer games or tune his canard then go to sleep. I thought he needed his place however when I trine to look out for my space by connecting with my friends and family or doing things I love, he would object.
I was not working then it was a very painful period. But I never gave up. I never thought of committing suicide .I was hoping and praying for something to hold onto. The miracle happened when I got pregnant. I thought with the arrival of the baby he would be a changed person. But once again I as proved wrong my lullaby to my baby seemed noise to him. In January 2007 I lost my father in a heart attack. I needed Alex the most then but he didn’t care. My mother came to see me and stayed with us. I could not even step into her room as he accused me that I was leaving him often he would shake my son Mark to pacify him. He would say that he was making a man out of him. I explained to him that mark is only a one month old baby.
Things just became worse on March 24 2007; in a fight of rage he tried to abuse me physically as well as my son. That was it I decide to call it quits.
My nose was bleeding my son was wailing I told Alex I was leaving. He thought it was a joke since he trine to keep me away from others he thought even if I tried nobody was going to help me and he was right also my father worked in a school and didn’t have much savings. I too lost my work and couldn’t continue it as I had lost my physique .But my father had done one thing in his life which saved me, my mother and my baby. He had done a life insurance and just after we left Alex’s house we got the policy amount. It saved our lives as without it we had nothing. Perhaps my father knew or felt that we will need his help when he is not with us. With the money we returned to Mumbai, and are here since then.
Presently I work in a call centre and earn a bit to feed the stomach of three of us but like my father I had made a life insurance too as now I have understood the meaning of a insurance and that my son may need it in some stage of his life.
This is a small part of my life but by all that happened I have learned the importance of having a life insurance. And u all who is reading this article of mine be prepared for future because you never no when life is going to show you a bitter face. Keep the future of your dear ones safe by having a life insurance as it will do our job when you may be not there.
